Welcome back to School

It has been 2 weeks since I started my journey go back to the school...few things that makes me good / not so good

I feel not so good when...

• I have to start my working hours earlier every week. Since I start work at 7.30 a.m , I need to leave my home as early as 6.40 a.m. waduss that makes me really2 sleepy all day long
• After work, I need to rush going back home, take a bath, pray and catch my class at 6.30 p.m.
• Though it's the 2nd week of semester, we have been given many assignments and presentation/discussions at class..
• I can only cook for my hubby during the weekend, poor him..sabar ya bang
• In the office , as usual so many things to be done, since we r going to move to a new building this year, we have been very2 bz, I wish I could have a genie in the bottle to help me hehehe

I feel good when...

• I dunno why, though Im really tired to rush here and there and of course with my condition in early pregnancy, I must admit that Im really2 happy and enjoy while im attending the classess
• Since the area that I study (Knowledge Mgt) is something that has been implemented in my orgn, I can always understand and relates it with what we do in work..this makes it more excited

Hopefully, Im able to go thru all of these..work, family and study..semoga Allah memberikan kekuatan dan mempermudahkan urusan kami sekeluarga, InsyaAllah

Julai 2009 Yang Dinantikan

I was on leave yesterday. Went to DEMC for check up with Dr Zamri. Dr has scanned me and confirmed that my pregnancy is now 2 months or 8 weeks. The expected date for due date is on 22 July 2009. Im so happy, so do my hubby. He was too excited when he saw the heartbeat of little fetus in my womb and he was spontaneously asked the dr, where's another one, makes the Dr laughing loudly. Yes, genetically I have twin siblings and twin nephews and my hubby thought that we will get twins too hahaha.

Nevertheles, as Dr said, it is still in early stage and I need to be very careful, tak boleh jalan laju2, tak boleh lasak2, no intimate activities for a while ahhahhh hehehe, tak boleh cuci2..waaa so happy to hear that hehe..but sometimes , kalau dok saja kat rumah pun boringkan, kenala buat kerja2 yg ringan2..

Semoga Allah mempermudahkan urusan kami sekeluarga, please pray for us and thank u very much atas segala doa2 kalian..I really appreciate it.

Terima Kasih dan Maafkan Aku

Di saat aku menghadapi antara hari2 dan saat2 yang paling sukar di dalam hidupku, kau hadir membantu dengan sedaya upaya mu tanpa mengira waktu..

Di saat aku memerlukan seseorang untuk meluahkan dan bertanyakan pendapat, kau tak pernah gagal menghadirkan diri

Di saat aku kesedihan dan kecewa kerana sesuatu, atau ingin berkongsi kegembiraan kerna mengecapi sesuatu kemanisan, kau juga ada disitu

Doamu dan segala usaha mu untuk kebaikan dan kesejahteraan diriku tidak pernah putus2 sejak detik itu

Aku tau, aku sedar dan aku amat menghargai segala galanya, cuma mungkin cara aku menghargai semua itu tidak seperti yang kau harapkan

Maka itu, teman, maafkan aku kiranya caraku amat melukakan mu, dan terima kasih atas segala galanya..Mengenalimu adalah satu dpd perkara yang terindah dalam hidupku..

Andainya Aku pergi Dulu Sebelummu

Ahad, at home lepaking with hubby di kamar beradu astakona (mende tu)

Me : Abang, abang rasa bahagia tak?

Hubby : aah ( biasa a dengan nadanya yg sungguh tak romantika di amor hehe)

Me : Abang, cakapla bahagia ke tak?

Hubby : Ya , Bahagia ( sambil senyum memandang aku)

Me : (Terdiam few minutes) Abang, banyak dah kan yg kita go thru, sepanjang kita kahwin..sampaikan kita hampir2 kehilangan satu sama lain

Hubby : Aah

Me : Abang, nanti kalau ada rezeki kita untuk baby ni, masa bersalin, kalau ayang meninggal, abang tlg sedekahkan mengaji sumer ya, ayang banyak dosa..

Hubby : ....diam...sudenly aku rasa katil bergoyang...Ya Allah, my hubby is crying teresak - esak..sth yg very2 rare..the last time he cried when his father died..

Me : Hugged him with love and said, dah la bang, ayang cakap je la..( secara spontan rasa sayang , terharu dan bahagia meresapi jiwa.mmm )

Andainya aku pergi dulu sebelummu...Janganlah kau bersedih hati
Andainya aku tiada lagi di sisimu...Janganlah kau memencil diri
Bayangkanlah masa-masa bahagia..Semasa engkau dan aku
Bermesra di langit biru..Di waktu kasih berpadu

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah

Akhirnya, last weeked , aku disahkan hamil about 4-5 weeks.

Friday Night(21 Nov 2008) - 1st pregnancy test using Clear Blue..the result was positive
mengigil seluruh badan tapi masih tak puas hati , discussed with hubby and decided that we need to do the pregnancy test at clinic

Saturday ( 22 November 2008) -

8.30 a.m. arrived at Klinik Anis Sek 2 (Panel Klinik), done the urine test and Dr said there's a 2nd line appear shows, meaning that Im pregnant..tapi the 2nd line was not very clear so need to come again after a week and do the scanning

10 a.m. after breakfast, still unsatisfy whether it's true that Im pregnant or not, both my hubby and I went to see Dr Zamri at DEMC to get his consultation/ views. Dr Zamri staright away scan my tummy, and yes it is confirmed that Im pregnant..Alhamdulillah..and Dr required for me to come after Raya haji to determine usia kandungan and due date..

dlm keta , dlm perjalanan pulang..both of us terdiam..dan secara tiba2 I was cried, sayu, terharu, sayu sgt rasanya...inilah kebesaran Allah..after almost 6 years we have been waiting and to the extend that keghairahan aku to conceive menurun coz I was give up, Allah gives us this baby..

I was cried and cried, not because I sad but because Im too happy and never think that I will get this chance..this is a miracle and great gifts from Allah though I have done many things wrong

Alhamdulillah dan semoga Allah mepermudahkan segala urusan kami..pada kawan2 yg mendoakan, terima kasih tak terhingga..