Terima Kasih dan Maafkan Aku

Di saat aku menghadapi antara hari2 dan saat2 yang paling sukar di dalam hidupku, kau hadir membantu dengan sedaya upaya mu tanpa mengira waktu..

Di saat aku memerlukan seseorang untuk meluahkan dan bertanyakan pendapat, kau tak pernah gagal menghadirkan diri

Di saat aku kesedihan dan kecewa kerana sesuatu, atau ingin berkongsi kegembiraan kerna mengecapi sesuatu kemanisan, kau juga ada disitu

Doamu dan segala usaha mu untuk kebaikan dan kesejahteraan diriku tidak pernah putus2 sejak detik itu

Aku tau, aku sedar dan aku amat menghargai segala galanya, cuma mungkin cara aku menghargai semua itu tidak seperti yang kau harapkan

Maka itu, teman, maafkan aku kiranya caraku amat melukakan mu, dan terima kasih atas segala galanya..Mengenalimu adalah satu dpd perkara yang terindah dalam hidupku..

Andainya Aku pergi Dulu Sebelummu

Ahad, at home lepaking with hubby di kamar beradu astakona (mende tu)

Me : Abang, abang rasa bahagia tak?

Hubby : aah ( biasa a dengan nadanya yg sungguh tak romantika di amor hehe)

Me : Abang, cakapla bahagia ke tak?

Hubby : Ya , Bahagia ( sambil senyum memandang aku)

Me : (Terdiam few minutes) Abang, banyak dah kan yg kita go thru, sepanjang kita kahwin..sampaikan kita hampir2 kehilangan satu sama lain

Hubby : Aah

Me : Abang, nanti kalau ada rezeki kita untuk baby ni, masa bersalin, kalau ayang meninggal, abang tlg sedekahkan mengaji sumer ya, ayang banyak dosa..

Hubby : ....diam...sudenly aku rasa katil bergoyang...Ya Allah, my hubby is crying teresak - esak..sth yg very2 rare..the last time he cried when his father died..

Me : Hugged him with love and said, dah la bang, ayang cakap je la..( secara spontan rasa sayang , terharu dan bahagia meresapi jiwa.mmm )

Andainya aku pergi dulu sebelummu...Janganlah kau bersedih hati
Andainya aku tiada lagi di sisimu...Janganlah kau memencil diri
Bayangkanlah masa-masa bahagia..Semasa engkau dan aku
Bermesra di langit biru..Di waktu kasih berpadu

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah

Akhirnya, last weeked , aku disahkan hamil about 4-5 weeks.

Friday Night(21 Nov 2008) - 1st pregnancy test using Clear Blue..the result was positive
mengigil seluruh badan tapi masih tak puas hati , discussed with hubby and decided that we need to do the pregnancy test at clinic

Saturday ( 22 November 2008) -

8.30 a.m. arrived at Klinik Anis Sek 2 (Panel Klinik), done the urine test and Dr said there's a 2nd line appear shows, meaning that Im pregnant..tapi the 2nd line was not very clear so need to come again after a week and do the scanning

10 a.m. after breakfast, still unsatisfy whether it's true that Im pregnant or not, both my hubby and I went to see Dr Zamri at DEMC to get his consultation/ views. Dr Zamri staright away scan my tummy, and yes it is confirmed that Im pregnant..Alhamdulillah..and Dr required for me to come after Raya haji to determine usia kandungan and due date..

dlm keta , dlm perjalanan pulang..both of us terdiam..dan secara tiba2 I was cried, sayu, terharu, sayu sgt rasanya...inilah kebesaran Allah..after almost 6 years we have been waiting and to the extend that keghairahan aku to conceive menurun coz I was give up, Allah gives us this baby..

I was cried and cried, not because I sad but because Im too happy and never think that I will get this chance..this is a miracle and great gifts from Allah though I have done many things wrong

Alhamdulillah dan semoga Allah mepermudahkan segala urusan kami..pada kawan2 yg mendoakan, terima kasih tak terhingga..

Coffee, Copy ?

Aku la ni yg tengah tensi tensi tetiba teringat kesedapan meminum ice blended coffee kat Starbucks last month ( br 1st time daa pi Starbucks sepanjang hayat ni with hubby)..reason we went there sbb dpt complimentary voucher from HSBC maa..free kan pi je la..

aku teringat kisah aku pasal coffee ni

Date : in 2003 ( br setahun jagung in my orgn)
Situation : in my office, entertained visitors from Bank of Maldives ke Mauritius that came for a study visits
Watak2 Utama: aku, my colleague kak bon and my boss en g...and 3 visitors abang2 neg...

the main briefing is handled by my boss, im waiting for my turn next..so aku ni yg takd aapa apa pengalaman jadilah nervousnya kepalang..rasa nak terkenc...pun ada waduss and start cakap sorang2 dlm hati sbb ketakutan sgt ngeh ngeh

tetiba my boss called my name and said, Mas, please make a copy of this for him , please ..aku? my sponatneous reaction was sambey ckp ok, yes, aku pi tuang coffe ke dalam cawan mamat2 3 ekor tu ....tteiba aku rasa sumer org pandang kat aku..then kak bon sounds aku. phootstat la doc tu

hah! baru aku perasan ..hahaha aku tengok boss aku nak gelak tapi dia kesian tgk muka aku pucat dia cover je la..aku plak.aduhaii merah muka menahan malu ..

lessons learnt...apa apa pun, 1st do not panic ..dek kerana terlampau panic, coffe ngan copy pun aku tak leh nak differentiate..

sabo je la kan

Rahsia Besar

i dunno why..lately one by one people around me came and see me and wanted to share with me their rahsia besar..and automatically when they classified it as rahsia besar, that means i cant tell anybody and have to think about it wow! such a big deal for me..

and more and more people around me come and see me , asking me to give a view n solution for them..

and rite now, after so many rahsia besar, im sorry i cant take it anymore..coz once i know people around me are suffering, having a problem I will start think, deep thinking sampaikan tgh2 malam aku boleh terjaga ..aterr pening kepala teman memikiorkannya..

to those yg dah informed me earlier, apa yg mas mampu fikirkan, itulah yg terbaik yg mampu mas beri dan harap terimalah seadanya..

to those yg nak mengimformkan to me, mas minta maaf ya, kepala dah berat sgt ni...

aku teringat lagi kakak aku dok tarik aku ckp kat aku, ayang, tlg simpan tau ni rahsia besar, my reaction? sponatneously aku lari wakaka

hmmm yg aku tak tahan lagi tu..yg akan jadik mangsa kena picit2 kepala aku yg pening memikiorkan masalah teman2 ialah cik abang kat rmh hehehe..