Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah

Akhirnya, last weeked , aku disahkan hamil about 4-5 weeks.

Friday Night(21 Nov 2008) - 1st pregnancy test using Clear Blue..the result was positive
mengigil seluruh badan tapi masih tak puas hati , discussed with hubby and decided that we need to do the pregnancy test at clinic

Saturday ( 22 November 2008) -

8.30 a.m. arrived at Klinik Anis Sek 2 (Panel Klinik), done the urine test and Dr said there's a 2nd line appear shows, meaning that Im pregnant..tapi the 2nd line was not very clear so need to come again after a week and do the scanning

10 a.m. after breakfast, still unsatisfy whether it's true that Im pregnant or not, both my hubby and I went to see Dr Zamri at DEMC to get his consultation/ views. Dr Zamri staright away scan my tummy, and yes it is confirmed that Im pregnant..Alhamdulillah..and Dr required for me to come after Raya haji to determine usia kandungan and due date..

dlm keta , dlm perjalanan pulang..both of us terdiam..dan secara tiba2 I was cried, sayu, terharu, sayu sgt rasanya...inilah kebesaran Allah..after almost 6 years we have been waiting and to the extend that keghairahan aku to conceive menurun coz I was give up, Allah gives us this baby..

I was cried and cried, not because I sad but because Im too happy and never think that I will get this chance..this is a miracle and great gifts from Allah though I have done many things wrong

Alhamdulillah dan semoga Allah mepermudahkan segala urusan kami..pada kawan2 yg mendoakan, terima kasih tak terhingga..

Coffee, Copy ?

Aku la ni yg tengah tensi tensi tetiba teringat kesedapan meminum ice blended coffee kat Starbucks last month ( br 1st time daa pi Starbucks sepanjang hayat ni with hubby)..reason we went there sbb dpt complimentary voucher from HSBC maa..free kan pi je la..

aku teringat kisah aku pasal coffee ni

Date : in 2003 ( br setahun jagung in my orgn)
Situation : in my office, entertained visitors from Bank of Maldives ke Mauritius that came for a study visits
Watak2 Utama: aku, my colleague kak bon and my boss en g...and 3 visitors abang2 neg...

the main briefing is handled by my boss, im waiting for my turn next..so aku ni yg takd aapa apa pengalaman jadilah nervousnya kepalang..rasa nak terkenc...pun ada waduss and start cakap sorang2 dlm hati sbb ketakutan sgt ngeh ngeh

tetiba my boss called my name and said, Mas, please make a copy of this for him , please ..aku? my sponatneous reaction was sambey ckp ok, yes, aku pi tuang coffe ke dalam cawan mamat2 3 ekor tu ....tteiba aku rasa sumer org pandang kat aku..then kak bon sounds aku. phootstat la doc tu

hah! baru aku perasan ..hahaha aku tengok boss aku nak gelak tapi dia kesian tgk muka aku pucat dia cover je la..aku plak.aduhaii merah muka menahan malu ..

lessons learnt...apa apa pun, 1st do not panic ..dek kerana terlampau panic, coffe ngan copy pun aku tak leh nak differentiate..

sabo je la kan

Rahsia Besar

i dunno why..lately one by one people around me came and see me and wanted to share with me their rahsia besar..and automatically when they classified it as rahsia besar, that means i cant tell anybody and have to think about it wow! such a big deal for me..

and more and more people around me come and see me , asking me to give a view n solution for them..

and rite now, after so many rahsia besar, im sorry i cant take it anymore..coz once i know people around me are suffering, having a problem I will start think, deep thinking sampaikan tgh2 malam aku boleh terjaga ..aterr pening kepala teman memikiorkannya..

to those yg dah informed me earlier, apa yg mas mampu fikirkan, itulah yg terbaik yg mampu mas beri dan harap terimalah seadanya..

to those yg nak mengimformkan to me, mas minta maaf ya, kepala dah berat sgt ni...

aku teringat lagi kakak aku dok tarik aku ckp kat aku, ayang, tlg simpan tau ni rahsia besar, my reaction? sponatneously aku lari wakaka

hmmm yg aku tak tahan lagi tu..yg akan jadik mangsa kena picit2 kepala aku yg pening memikiorkan masalah teman2 ialah cik abang kat rmh hehehe..

Serupa Tapi Tak Sama

This morning, around 9.40 a.m., aku yg terlewat masuk office 5 minutes dengan kelam kabutnya dipanngil and my boss asked me to give a briefing and a physical tour to our visitors from other countries.

aku pun ngan confidentnya, bla bla bla..sampai 1 section aku ckp la, as a ...., we do collect the annual reports and relevant publications from other central banks in the world. tetiba one of the mr tanya, doyou also collect ours? yes yes, aku dengan muka confident sotong capai la this publication..here sir..this is ur bank AR

sekali, one of the Mr tergeleng2 sambil mencapai another publication adn said, no not that one, this is the one, this is ours..

erk..penddengaran aku td boss aku ckp depa ni from pakistan..lorr rupa rupanya..bangladesh..wadusss,apakah aku ini main hantam karomo saje..tengok features muka serupa tapi rupanya tak sama hahaha..aku tahan je gelak..maaf la ya mr mr visitors..

Back to School

After all the upset, sadness and frustration week at d office, I received the offer letter for me to go back to school, Alhamdulillah..rasa syukur sesangat and terubat hati dan semangat ni rasanya..

I'm required to register on 13 Dec 2008 and I'll be doing the Masters of Knowledge Management. If everything is ok, I'll start my class by end of Dec ..that means I can only go for short holiday only..few things to be prepared:

• To buy stationaries ( For pencil case, I already got present from my niece..she brought me a nice pink karer Liz Clairbone pencil case from US..woww wiee hehe)
• To inform n seek approval from my DD and M to change my flexi hours from 8-5 only coz my class will start at 6.30 p.m. for 3-4 days per week
• To buy new clothes n necessary accessories..kasi semangat maa mau pi kelas
• To buy school bag
• A pair of new school shoes perharps..erk

Apa - apa pun I feel happy , excited and a bit worried whether I'm able to cater all of the responsibilities or not, home, work, school, family..hmmm kasi ana phening la haha..another thing, aku ni dah 6 years ++ tak baca buku2 ilmiah dan kerja2 menelaah ni..mmm boleh ke aku study ni ...layannnn

For friends and bloggers yg singgah2 sini yg bagi Mas support and advice about my frustration tu, terima kasih banyak2 ya..semoga Tuhan mempermudahkan urusan kalian

Alhamdulillah and to Abang, thank u very much for everything, despite of all things that we've been thru all this while, we're still together..

"You were my strength when I was weak, You were my voice when I couldn't speak, You were my eyes when I couldn't see, You saw the best there was in me, Lifted me up when I couldn't reach, You gave me faith 'coz you believed, I'm everything I am, Because you loved me .."